Looking up from the edge

Thank you your well wishes for Ken. He is feeling MUCH better! When he got home from work we talked about it:

Him: “you aren’t going to poison me tonight are you honey?”

Me: “never when you're expecting it honey”

So things are pretty much back to normal around here!

May was a delicate balancing act and brought about a lot of change around here, most of it for the good. I no longer feel like I’m clinging to the edge and teetering with uncertainty. I think the main thing is that I’ve shifted from looking down to looking up. A much needed change.

Over all I feel good, I feel back on track, I’m staying very busy between keeping up with the blogs, freelance work, exercise and the normal household stuff, I feel like I don’t have a minute to spare these days but its a good thing.

To keep on task, I’m using my day planner again to schedule exercise in my day because if it’s in the book then I MUST keep that appointment! I tend to get so involved in projects I’m working on that I only stop and realize that I’m hunched over this computer when:

1. Nature calls
2. Sadie and Max need attention or nature calls for them
3. The phone rings (rare)

I’ve started setting a timer for an hour so that every hour I’m forced to stop what I’m doing and stretch or see where I’m at in the day’s schedule. I do love working from home but I have to find the best balance for me. I must say that it’s easier to sit here and work now that Ken has gone back to work because when he was home all day it was too easy to just say “let’s go to the park” and let my work slide.

Sometimes I think I take on too much but I remember that my life has always been about moving at warp speed. I like to be busy and I very rarely slow down. I think that is part of my weight problem too, life is so fast and so instant and for so long, so was my food. I count that among the best changes I’ve made since starting this lifestyle. I know that I often write about lack of weight loss progress but really I do hear you when you remind me that I’ve come so far and I do know that you’re right. If not for trying, where would I be? Up to 450 pounds? Unable to leave the house? Worse? I'm so grateful that I've made the turn around and chose to live.

It’s difficult to step away from work at times and I often find myself working 7 days a week and longer hours than necessary. This is where using the day planner is going to help. I’ve been invited to a Garden Party on Thursday an excellent reminder that I need to schedule time to slow down, smell the roses and learn to be still. I need to find a way to do it daily, if only for 20 minutes. Hiking through the park was relaxing but its simply too humid to enjoy it. Some of you have tried the guided meditation CD, do you like it, does it work for you? Any other good meditation or relaxation tips?

Over all things are on track for getting back to normal around the house and I really think that will mean back maintaining that delicate balance that is my life.